I found my old poems, written long time a go... tried to translate it... probably not really good translation, but anyway tried my best! I have so many poems hidden somewhere, so many old blogs with memories...

Memories, memories, memories - memories will kill me some day... so many of them! I want to keep them all in my heart but forgetting... and it is sad... and it's killing me more than memories itself.


'Overload'

Paranormal
Supernatural
Exceptional

Crisis
Danger
Overcharge

of System

Warning
Notice

Red light

STOP!

Abnormal
Unusual

Supersaturation
Overheating

of System

Attention!

Rotor hub spinning
Faster and faster

Attention!

Emotional

Overload

People stories in Heath Hospital

Some time ago I went to Heath Hospital (Emergency Unit) with heart attack, and spend there 5 hours (!!!) waiting for help... and it's interesting how many different stories you can notice or hear. Five hours is a quite long time, and lot of people coming in and out, so you can probably find it hard to notice all stories, but if you focus just on few of them (sitting nearest) it's much easier (especially if you eavesdrop)...

It would be great documentary to record all these stories and take photographs of people telling those stories, but I think it is impossible to do it in Hospital, and it would be rude to ask people in pain to take photographs of them. Other way is to take photographs secretly using mobile phone or some small camera.
One of the stories I've noticed: Young boy (15 years old) bring his drunk mother to hospital with injuries on her head (automatic garage gate hit her). She was so drunk that she didn't feel any pain, maybe it was some kind of shock as well. On one side it was bit comic - she sing funny songs, stroke his son, hug him, generally she behaved like a small girl, on the other side how embarrassing her behavior was for his son! At first he keep telling her to stop singing and be quiet, then when she didn't stopped he tried to shout. Hospital staff didn't care about people, but when she started singing songs loud and her son shouted up as well they came and ask him if he need some help. He was so embarrassed. Poor boy and sad story! They took the lady to other room and let her son to go back home (2am!). They promised him to keep eye at his mother, but after half hour they let her out of this room, without checking her head (!!!) - lady started walking around, shouting "where is my boy!??"... finally she walk out from hospital without any medical help, with blood all over her clothes.
Another story: Two ladies came to Hospital. One with some injuries on her neck other as a companion. They were friends. Everything seems to be all right with lady, they talking, laughing etc. But suddenly injured lady started to cry. Listening their talk I've came to conclusion, that injured lady is 2 months after wedding, and her husband started to be aggresive. He tried to suffocate her with some cord. She escaped but don't know what to do now, as she don't want to go back home.
Five hours in waiting area... many people... many sad stories... such a great documentary...

350 Exhibition @ ATRiuM 24/10/2009

Video from 350 Exhibition @ ATRiuM

Fantastic job! 1st and 2nd year student created photos for exhibition (excellent set!) - 3rd year students curated. Amazing they had just few weeks to do all of this, and exhibition went really great! Congratulations guys! It's a big shame that I didn't had chance to help! Sorry for that! Big thanks for Tim, Andy and Steve! You are great!

Here you can find very interesting Video created by Ryan Atkinson - 350 Climate Change Awarness Exhibition.

I think something is changing in ATRiuM, changing for better. I have a hunch that I am loosing something, and loosed something already, and will loose more of it. And I don't like this feeling...
Missing it already... and it's horrible!

Made in Roath - Exhibition

Another exhibition!

This time my photographs will be available to view during 'Made in Roath - Arts Festival' at The Gate Arts Centre (Roath). Entry is free :)






Past Exhibition - Sex Wales & Anarchy 2 - The Globe, Cardiff. Big succes with Gareth David Lloyd's show and live bands.

19/08/1839 - 170 years of history

19/08/1839 - special day - Jacque Daguerre’s new photographic process was demonstrated to the French Academy of Sciences.
It is 170 year of history. New processes, new equipment, everything changes. I am thinking about Daguerre and Talbot and other early photographers- does they know how photography will change during this 170 years? How easy and quick are now all processes, developing, printing? They spend many years to explore and discover photography, now it is so easy, so popular...

Bristol International Balloon Fiesta 2009

It was really really nice trip. I've never seen before so many beautiful hot air balloons, so many colours and shapes. I can't find the words to describe how beautiful was this show. Next year I am planing all weekend visit and definatelly don't miss any hour of Balloon Fiesta shows. I had chance to try my new camera and new lenses and results are good. Close up shots of baloons, people, sky etc. few of them already uploaded to flickr.

Unfortunately queue to the Banksy Exhibition was so long that waiting over 3-4 hours was just nonsense, will go there probably next week.

I spend really nice day with friends talking about next academic year, challenges waiting for us, major projects, ideas for future, plans. And it helps me to see my life from different angle again!


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Failure

There are situations in life which give me lesson of humillity. I took a part in this year Cardiff Photomarathon. It was really amazing day full of fun, adventures and new friendships.
Now, I see set of pictures, in wrong order, partially overexposed/underexposed and I don't think it was my fault. I've checked camera before use, batteries was checked as well, so maybe Photomarathon team damaged my film during developing? I was sure that I will get set of really good and funny images, but results are poor... Shame... Here >>> 160 <<<>>>Bartek Nowicki 340<<<). His film was ok, but I think they mixed his images, so order is wrong as well.
It sad, anyway I get lesson and again learned something new.

Photomarathon 2009 - Exhibition 3

On June 20th, 370 photographers gathered in Cardiff for the fifth UK Photomarathon.

The challenge was the same for them all: 12 hours, 12 topic, 12 pictures, 1 roll of 35mm film.

The results - every single images taken on the day - can be seen at this unique exhibition!

EXHIBITION:

25th June 2009 - 10.oo - The Old Library, The Hayes, Cardiff

My entry number is 160.

Everyone welcome!

The Big Event 2: Closing Party

My first exhibition ending soon - Closing night will take place 25th July @ NosDa Hostel, it was big succes and hostel's owners want to extend it, so probably all artworks will stay there for longer. So you can still see my work.

Fair Play Festival 2009 - Exhibition 2

I am almost ready for my second small exhibition @ Fair Play Festival 2009. This time I will show 4 images - all of them from the same series of portraits. Images will be much larger in size and probably will be shown to bigger audience, but just for 3 days, much shorter than first exhibition.




Fair Play Festival 2009: 24th- 26th July 2009, The Lansdowne Hotel, Canton, Cardiff - 3 days and nights of live music, art, activities and fair - trading.

First exhibition

My first exhibition ever - nothing really big just two images, but anyway good start to share my work with bigger group of people. I choosen space near window, and near Michal Iwanowski's lightboxes, also near Anna's works. It was best space because it is also stage area. All invited!!! NOS DA - Despencer Street, Riverside, Cardiff

I am planning few other exhibition in nearest future... so watch this space... more info soon...


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Festival of Transport - Barry 14.06.2009

It was great day and weather was really nice. I've done lot of photographs and I am quite satisfied with them. Cars show was really exciting!!!


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Bradford Trip 26-27.05.2009

Unforgettable time! Two days full of emotion, beautifull landscapes, places and full of thinking, fun and relaxation . Most fascinating was National Media Museum in Bradford - especially Kodak Gallery in LG floor full of old cameras, negatives, cyanotypes, tintypes, 3D projectors etc. Amazing!! I run from one side to other like a small excited girl and I spend most of my time there!!! Another important and very exciting part of Museum was Don McCullin exhibition - In England - really enjoyed watching it!! Another interesing point of trip was short stop in small city called Hebden Bridge. Beauty spot, small old town in north of england. I love places like this. Small community, all people know each other - it's nice! We spend night in small YHA hostel in Haworth - friendly place, good standart and situated in wonderfull area. I've planned another stay there in the end of summer. Will be nice to go there one more time. It's funny , but I would like to have all this places, all landscapes just for me, don't share it with other poeple, stay there longer, think about what I see, unhurriedly. Delight landscapes, sights, fresh air... all of this just for me... It's just big shame, that something wrong happened to my camera, as all beautifull images which I've taken are not really good, I have to check it and fix it. But what is it? It's sad as I don't have many images from this trip... I have to go there again!!!

'Photography for me is not lookin- it's feeling. If you can't feel what are you looking at, then you are never going to get others to feel anything when they loook at your pictures.' Don McCullin.

Pembroke, Newgale and St Davids - 24.05.2009

Another fascinating trip - this time other part of Wales - Pembrokeshire. Beautiful coastline of Newgale, amazing turquoise water, blue sky, sunny weather.

St David's - another stunning part of history - small town with old cathedral and bishop palace. Full of tourists, old pubs, shops, houses. Few hours is definately too short time to explore this place. I didn't know what to do, which places I should 'catch', which elements, and how. It's sad that I can't stop, think and then photographing. Time is cruel! I want to catch all single part of each building. I can't concentrate just on one thing. I want to catch every single stone, every brick, flower... everything around me is so beautiful! So many ideas! It's just crazy!??

What should I do? It's just stupid to photographing 'everything' I should concentrate, think about most important subjects, ideas, systematize all. But how?






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Warsaw - July 2008

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Memories from Warsaw/Warszawa. Two days is to short to explore this beautifull city. I want to move there some day for month or two to visit all interesting places there. I don't like big busy cities like Warsaw, but I am from Poland and it's shame that I don't know my Capitol City. I know Cardiff - Capitol of Wales better than Warsaw.
This year I am planing to vistit Wroclaw and Lubiaz (Sl0t Art Festival).

Memories from last holidays (Poland 2008 - Kolobrzeg City).

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Polish photographers in Wales

I've meet large amount of Polish photographers in Cardiff. I will indtroduce three of them (favourite ones) shortly to show how different views and how different interest we have:

Bartek Nowicki studying BA Documentary Photography in University of Wales, Newport. He documented Polish Labour in UK, photographing life in Poland also made lot of portraits in different countries. My favourite series from his portfolio is Set called Polish Labour - clever layout of 5 images constructed together to show two side of life - work and home/familly.

Michal Iwanowski - finished MA in Documentary Photography at University of Wales, Newport, specializing in portraits and painting with light, he recieved The Project Assistance Award (British Journal of Photography in association with Nikon). Really great collection of portraits of his friends and other people (volounteers). Interesting point of view and amazing effect of painting with light - it's incredible he just used basic torch, which he bought for 50p in tesco - but what a beautifull result!

Maciej Dakowicz - MA in Documentary Photography at University of Wales, Newport, documentary photographer. His set of images, which he made during last 4 years in Cardiff are really amazing and good known - his photos were published in The Sun, Daily Mail, The Guardian, Fakt, Der Spiegel, NEED magazine, BBC, YAHOO, Serendib Sri Lankan Airlines magazine, Etihad Airlines magazine, The Independent on Sunday, Vacature, New Welsh Review, Kruger, Get Lost!, Digital Camera, FOTO Magazyn, Amateur Photographer, Photography Monthly, DC Photo, Outdoor Photographer, Himal Southasian, World Pulse Magazine, HK Magazine, Star Tribune, Wales on Sunday, Click, Globtroter, Out Traveler, Adbusters. He is really huge!!! Just look at his work and you will understand WHY? !!!

It's time for me to think about the future. It will be long way...

Another amazing trip - Big Pit

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Another amazing and really exciting trip with 'Uni team'. This time almost all people from my group (BA Photography 2nd year - 2007/2010) - Rita and Manuel (Rita's boyfriend) , Malcolme, Anna, and tutors Tim, Steve and Andy. I've never seen so beautiful lanscapes here in Wales before - hills full of sheeps, rocks, green grass, trees small lakes. Weather was really nice for first 20 minutes but rest of time raining - what a pity!!! I've made few good photographs there but I have to visit this place again this summer I have so many ideas to use there!!!

What a shame that I don't have car - I can travel to places which are served by trains or buses olny - I would like to travell to other unexplored places with possibility to stop on my way and take photographs everywhere not just where National Express or Railway have their stops. Wales is so beautiful, so green - hills, coast, waterfalls, national parks, lakes, mountains - I can't get to most of this places just because I don't have a car. It's sad.

Another places we visited today was Butetown, Blaenavon Ironworks and Big Pit. Another bit of history of this amazing country. And I want to know more and more and I began to be fascinated of it. I live here 4 years and every year visiting the same places - Barry Island, Swansea, Llantwit Major, St Fagans, Cosmestone Lakes, Cardiff Bay - what about other places around Cardiff - Castell Coch, Caerphilly Castle, Caerphilly Mountain, Taff Trail, National Parks, waterfalls? I want to explore all of it and more!

Three other trips to go - unfortunately I will miss one on thursday 21st May (work) - anyway I will go to two other Bradford and Hereford. I can't wait!

It was another day full of emotions, relax and fun.

Thanks for that, guys!

HDR - magic, abstract, imagination, inspiration

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HDR is a strange and really powerfull technique. I've never tried it before, so presented images are not excellent examples, anyway I really enjoyed creating hdr photographs. HDR is full of mysteries and magic. Realistic hdr for me are not really impressive I prefer unrealistic look, strange abstract colours and magic shape of clouds. It is really enjoyable! Some of them looks a like paintings, other one like cartoons or computer graphic. And it is for me HDR - imagination, bit of magic and elements of abstract.

Here you can find my book/guide about St John's Church in Cardiff and Llandaff Cathedral - for which I used HDR.

Lacock Abbey - amazing trip

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Todays trip was really exciting and amazing for me and it will stay long time in my memory.

The village is really amazing, atmosphere of it remind me 'Bleak House' 2005 (BBC) which is a fifteen-part drama serial adaptation of Charles Dickens' novel 'Bleak House' (published 1852-53). I finished watching this serial few days ago, and I am still impressed by it, especially now after trip to Lacock Abbey. The village and buildings are almost the same like in film!!! It is really amazing feeling to be there!!! Like moving back in time... I love places like St Fagans in Cardiff, Lacock Abbey, Cosmeston Lake near Cardiff - I can feel atmosphere of past there - its magic!!!

Another important point of trip was museum - full of old images, old notes and old cameras - my favourite one which especially paid my attention was Coronet Midget (1935) which is smaller than box of matches!!! It is amazing!!! Film for this camera is smaller than half of pen's cap!!! It's very impressive! I can't belive that it's worked in the past and people used them! It's almost impossible!?

Most important and most exciting was visit in William Fox Talbot house... it's strange feeling to be there and take picture of the same window, which he take long long time ago (1835?)... first negative ever... it's a big shame that I had with me just digital camera!! I will definatelly go there once again this summer!!! This time I will use film camera!

Thanks for my tutors - they opened new doors in my life - once again!

My first exhibition!!!

Here you go! My first exhibition!!! Nothing big - just two images - but I am really proud and really happy! It's first exhibition in my life but I think not the last one, I will try to arrange other exhibitions during this summer, so finger crossed!

All informations about The Big Event 2009 are on poster on the left side of page or here.

You can also find few of my photos on The Big Fuss website - click here. Just three of them, but I am really happy that The Big Fuss help me believe, and give me chance to show my work to others.

My name is also included in A-Z Artist Directory - click here.

Many thanks to David Lee and Zaeger Jones from The Big Fuss!!! Thank You guys!!!

Can't wait to see my work exhibited! :)

Magic Chalice

Painting with light - magic chalice.

The pictures of the „magic chalice” I took at home, on the table. I used a black cloth as a background, together with a black shirt. The shirt was used to create an effect of a folded surface on which the chalice stands. As a source of light I used a glow stick (colourful tubes with a shiny fluid inside, used as bracelets during parties). The pictures were taken with a Pentax K100D Super camera with a function „bulb exposure” on, which gave me control over how long I can move the tubes. I chose many colours of sticks. The effect I got by moving the tubes around the chalice is a colourful mist, the tubes inside the chalice created a beam of light reaching out of it and the tubes that were moved around the folded shirt gave an effect of roughness of the surface and mist surrounding the chalice. I did not edit the photos in Photoshop because I thought it to be needless.

Walking trough Canton

Walk trough the Canton.

All portraits made during my walk trough Canton area of Cardiff. I used Pentax K1000 35mm film camera and B&W Ilford Delta 400 film; then scanned film using Nikon Scan software. All images are manipulated in Photoshop (using 'posterize edges' filter and colour balance). I cropped people's faces and photographed just half of it. I've made 20 photographs - people of different age, sex, from different countries and cultures. I've choose just 18 pictures to final collage prints.

The project which I have done, seemed to be easy. I was to approach 20 people on the street and take their photos, of course with their consent. The pictures were basically to present the face. I’ve decided to frame them　in a slightly different way so that the series was original and different that the others. Therefore I’ve taken the picture of only a part of the face i.e. one eye and nose.

Everyone hides something, has some secrets and can’t be seen through completely. Face and eyes can tell us a lot but they cannot become the only thing by which people are being judged. That was basically the essence of my project. The worst part of the whole enterprise was obviously approaching people on the streets. Fortunately, everyone was nice and I managed to do my project smoothly. Never before have I met those people. I walk the route from my home towards Cowbridge Road East several times a day and despite that I have never paid attention to people. Having done my project, I perceive world a bit differently. Now I meet the people whose photos I’ve taken very often. They remember that I have taken their photos and we are no longer passing ourselves indifferently. Now I pay definitely more attention to people. I observe passers-by and think whether it would be possible to get to know them all…

You can find book with all my photos from this serie here: on my blurb account.

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